It feels like the weeks are flying by faster and faster at this rate!
This week has been a lot of work and not much sleep, and I also managed to get down to London to see I Love You, You’re Perfect, Now Change, which was a really hilarious snap-shot style musical. It’s on at Above The Arts in Leicester Square until July 18th and it was absolutely brilliant, I thoroughly recommend it!
On Friday I found out the pier where we scattered my mum’s ashes would be closing to the public later this year. Obviously as she wasn’t buried I considered that spot as her grave in a way, and to know now that I won’t be able to go there soon makes me feel really devastated. I find it hard to believe in the religious/spiritual side of grief which is a shame because I wish I could feel like my mum was still here – I just don’t think I’m there yet. I was hoping in the future when I have my own little family I’d be able to walk them down that pier and for us to go and visit mum together, so it’s more the thought of the future that’s made me feel even sadder about it all.
So it’s thrown me, that’s for sure. It’s things like this that make me lose my focus on just trying to live as happy a life as I can, because at the end of the day if you’re living a happy life that’s all that matters. Who cares what job you’re in, where you’re living, what you’re doing. If you’re happy and healthy that’s what matters the most.
I’ll make sure my perspective can shift back to that as soon as possible.